One. Uno. Eins. The first number. First place. The unity of all things. The smallest denomination of paper money in America. The square root of itself. Yes, one is all those things. And also… also, it’s this blog. The first blog of a 60 day blogging bonanza that I am embarking upon. To be honest, I’m a little terrified. But, I’ve made a commitment, and I intend to stick to it.
I’m raising money for a new album for the next 60 days, and I have made a solemn pledge to blog for every one of those 60 days. So here we are. 1
While this is the first day of blogging, and the first day of my fundraising campaign, to make my first record with my new band, this is by no means a beginning. I’ve been making music a quite a while now. I’ve had some amazing experiences on this rube-goldberg-crazy-straw-roller-coaster ride of a career, but so far, big success has eluded me. I’ve spend the last couple years watching my friends all get married, make babies, and get fancy things, like health insurance. And here I am, still chipping away at a mountain with a pocket knife.
Sometimes I do wonder why I don’t just hang it up, and carve out a more sensible and sustainable life for myself. I could certainly find a way to do that. I definitely don’t look down on those who have. I’m actually more than a little envious of people who have that elusive thing called “security” on their lives.
The truth is, as ridiculous as the life of a struggling artist and musician is, it still seems to be the only reasonable path for me. I’m still completely mystified by the improbability of the world. I can stare at a tree for two minutes, and I feel insane. What the hell is a tree? What are we doing on this tiny rock whirling through space. What the hell is space?
Some say all things are really one. But wouldn’t that make one a really lonely number? Maybe that explains my existential malaise. The universe is just lonely… of course I should spend my time writing sad songs.
And there you have it.
1 down. 59 to go!
Thanks for everything friends,
PS. It’s going to get tough to think of things to write about everyday. Please give me some ideas! What would you like to read about? Leave a comment. Thanks!!